Tuesday, July 19, 2005

A Little More to Deal With...

As if we don’t have enough going on, we got a notice on our door the other day stating that the owners of our building are selling each individual unit as condos and that they can evict us with fifteen days notice. GREAT!
So, we are now in the process of finding a real estate agent to help us figure out if we can buy a house. We have always rented and our credit is far less than perfect. Some more changes in our life to be nervous about. I haven’t the slightest idea of how to go about buying a house but, luckily, we have contacts from work that will lead us in the right direction. The property values in our area are through the friggin roof, and we want to stay in the same school district, so who knows what will happen. On to a happier topic.
If you went to lg’s blog, then you know that our two week 24/7 trial has been going very well. She has been taking her new duties in stride and her attitude has been exemplary. She seems to be happier and more content than usual and that is more than I had expected. Example: Night before last lg came into the bedroom holding her collar. She asked if she could wear it for awhile, even though her brother was expected to come over. The look on her face was priceless. She looked like a cute little puppy dragging its leash to its master, asking to go for a walk. I buckled her into it and relished in her transformation to the demure little girl I expect. She then told me that I could make her wear it a lot more if I wanted to. This is unusual for lg. She has, from the beginning of our experimenting, said that she wasn’t sure if the collar was something she wanted to be a part of all this. She also has a small phobia of having things around her neck and has never worn chokers. So, when she came into the bedroom specifically asking to be collared, it was a definite sign of progress and of her ability to stop being so nervous.
Another change that I have noticed is how wet lg is all the time. She has always been a gusher once she is in the sack and engaged in some fun, but to be able to reach under her dress at almost anytime of day or night and feel her gushing is something very new. Again, a good sign that she is, in fact, enjoying all this.
I also have realized that I have to pay a lot of attention to her while in a 24/7 situation. I am used to falling into bed and watching TV or playing video games when all of my responsibilities are taken care of and letting lg go about whatever it is she wants to do. Several times during this two weeks, though, I have found myself doing this and then realizing that lg needs some kind of attention; that she is just laying on the sofa, vegetating, which is not like her. Lack of direction for her on my part. Taking control of lg’s life has, in a very concrete way, made me take a hard look at my own. The responsible adult I thought that I was is just not enough. I have always been a ‘go with the flow’ type of person, allowing life to lead me where it may. I have no regrets about where my life has gone so far, but the truth is that I have just been very lucky. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not changing my whole concept on life, but I am taking a more active role in where life leads us now. I still ‘go with the flow’ but am starting to realize that there are more than one ‘flow’ and that I can choose which ‘flow’ I want to go with. And this is a direct result of our, in lg’s words, immersion into D/s. Overall, I think that this whole thing is not only bringing lg and I closer together, it is affecting all aspects of our lives in a positive way.

Keep Living Well.

C.

2 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hugs sweetie...I hope all goes well and that you find an even better place in the end...

*hugs* to lg for me too :)

1:29 AM  
Blogger Blogger said...

Thanks! We are talking with a loan officer today to see if we can buy instead of rent. Keep your fingers crossed for us.
SeaRabbit - We did have a one-year lease...but when it was up, we just started going month to month, which allows them to do the '15-day' thing. It does suck though.
And the 24/7 trial ended yesterday and when we talked about it, lg decided to keep going with it. I will be posting about it soon.

Keep Living Well.

C.

7:58 AM  

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